Today I had a real awakening in the "real world". I had got into a physical fight with someone who I thought was my friend. We were "friends" since junior high and her anger towards me didn't add up until a comment she made about high school, that in fact she and another supposedly "friend" were jealous of me. I was unsuspecting of her intentions so her attack on me had caught me off guard. Over and over again I think about how I should have handled myself better and I replay the situation over and over and it gets me angrier. What had happen today also hurt me emotionally because it had showed just how lonely I am in this world. Before whether it was family or an old boyfriend, I was being attacked emotionally and verbally. Now this had happened! I have loss so much to gain peace within myself and to let go of my past. Today just brings up a lot of emotions I wish not to feel. I feel revenge in my heart and this person has also threatened to take my life. So I had made up in my mind that if she crosses my path it is WAR!! Now I see its all about me now and *uck the world. I am a quiet, sometimes shy, sweet, caring person who is always stepping aside just to get stepped on and I am tired of it. I don't like drama or any form of evil but I do feel that I have to change who I am to get respect and be protective of myself. My pain comes from my broken heart but in my world this is just another life lesson and a part of my growing process. This is suppose to be the year of rest and relaxation but so much has happended to me overall in the past two years. This coming up soon will be my birth day, which is in August and I will no longer be a teenager. I know that I have to brush my shoulders off and look forwards. As a young woman I still dont have much guidance in my life so my question is to all the strong, wise, and intellectual women of Destee where should I go from here? When it comes to friends (female) what should i look out for, you know the pros and the cons?