This seems a little dramatic but in all honesty this is the way I feel: Sometimes when I eat I go into a trance and I just stuff my face like I've never eating or am ever gonna eat again. Then after I'm done i feel gross! Or there are those times when I've got a few bites left but I'm full to the brim, i don't want to waste the food so i eat it anyways. after eating i feel dirty, i feel like i can feel the fat oozing out of my pores. I feel like every pudgy part of my body is enlarging by like 90,000% and I envision my self as super fat. I always say in a joking way I'm gonna be fat one day. But i don't wanna be. Since I'm so short any weight I gain shows a lot. When I'm heavier I feel uncomfortable. I need to start eating healthier, but it's just so easy to cook up that burger plus I have a very very selective food choice.