Black Poetry : Destruction of the LovNthySoul

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  1. LovNThySoul

    LovNThySoul Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    My heart continuously tries to attempt to to heal
    Yet your lies made me feel exempt from love itself...for real

    I've tried to remain positive, feeling it was God's test
    Now it's my perogative, to avoid love as it is only a short term guest

    See, i'm a long haul brotha, believed in a real deal love affair
    but i get abandoned and lied to like no other, women i meet just don't care

    I don't want love out of wanting, or just to be in love
    I sought out what i have within worth giving, thus what God has created my soul out of

    But i keep meeting those that lie, and say they want the same as me
    All they do is seek to make my heart cry, so i now hide what is real you see

    So now here exists this man, that caries so much pain within
    As no woman seems to be able to understand, that i can have so much love now hidden

    It is in my life lessons that this man that has so much to give is not wanted
    It makes you want to loose to depression, as i see only those with anyone are those with paper that flaunt it

    A good black man lost by countless lies, conditional love, and an intent to hurt what God created
    I was meant as a gift of love to you, my soul cries, but it goes to unhearing ears that continually leaves my soul unappreciated and decimated



    I am starting a topic in regards to this in the relationship forum.
     
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    MzBlkAngel Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    oh boy as a woman i know this pain all so well
    to avoid it and go on like it never happen...
    well one thing that keeps me going is
    God loves me...so for me joy comes every
    morning!!!!! So my peace is forever laid


    Great poem...

    Peace
    Angel
     
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    Just reading this as poetry, the ache in this was very well expressed. As far as the situation, no way to sugar coat it, I know this hurts. And the hope is that somehow we learn from it, and eventually move on to a love that is indeed meant for you.
     
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    LovNThySoul Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    It's funny....just cause i expressed myself and showed what i felt. I was considered a woman on that topic.

    Is it so that if i say what i feel i am considered a female? So in order to have feelings or acknowledged having feelings, i have to be a woman?

    All i can do is sit here and laugh and at the same time shake my head like, "ain't it sad". Man....no wonder so many men are messed up. Yes...i am in severe vent mode today lol.
     
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    LovNThySoul Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Let me ask you this. What if you have been through so much that you have lost that hope. You want to believe but the last thing that happened ruined the last shred of hope you have left. And i've had lots of hope and faith but now i question if what i have felt was apart of my life's path was not meant for me.

    Not by my choice.
     
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    You need a hug brother....:grouphug:
     
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    Hey Brother LovNThySoul,

    I am a woman and the pain, lies and deceit… I also have encountered. …as humans we carry old baggage from past pain and hurts …that do interfere with a present relationship…most time male and female don’t think how they affect the other person because of the hurt that they have encountered in a past relationship…

    I also had to learn to get pass it and heal…it don’t just take a over night prayer it takes time to heal…and begin to love one’s self whole again….

    the poem and the venting you are healing….

    The pain cuts deep I know… but I know that pain will heal for I once was there…
    But I also found my strength in every encounter that makes me stronger from my past
    One door closes and another opens…God have his ways on making you what he needs you to be for the mate he sees for you…. we get lost and try to do things on our own when our path is already made…
     
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    LovNThySoul Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    MzBlkAngel

    ....I ask you this....Say you have been through alot. We all have....and say...that you actually got to a point where you forgave everyone that did you wrong in your past.

    You got past all the injustice and whatnot....

    NOW,....you are ready for a healthy relationship and you start to get into one and that new person does you just like all the rest if not worse. And this new person led you on to believe that she was your soulmate. The script was flipped very sudden and you find out through their friend that they do this on purpose to men. Basically treated as gum with a bad aftertaste.

    For me right now...it's like the straw that broke the camel's back.
     
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    Oh see i understand...but I have moved on...it was his lost not mine because I know I am a good person...I know who I am within myself ...now I did the pity party..but that played out...I had to get me right and not worry about him...KARMA will come his way...(what comes around goes around)

    The battle is not yours nor was it mine sort of speak, because if a person does this they are not happy within thy self and worse lying to their self of who they are.......skip the drama and move on why not forgive the damage is already done...it is time to heal

    I am in a healthy relationship now...and like I said one door closes another opens much better much stronger
    he is my best freind as well
     
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    Brotha LovNThySoul...First, let me say, that your post saddens me. I also have been through a situation where I was so emotionally bruised that I had lost every fiber of hope. And when something painful like this happens, yes, the pain is excruciating...
    But you can't let the hurt defeat you, and healing is going to take time. During this time, treat yourself as the king that you are. Reaquaint yourself with the things you love in life, those things you have a passion for. When I was at my lowest, I started writing poetry again after years of not writing a line of it. And that was a God send. And speaking of God, prayer helped me more than I can say. Even now that I am over that awful time in my life, I pray not only about those things that go wrong, but those things that go right.
    Bottom line is, when the going gets tough, get tougher. Doesn't mean to give up on love, just take some time to love yourself right now. It may not seem like it now, because you are in the midst of it, but this too shall pass. Peace to you.
     
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