Black Poetry : dear mom

daroc

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dear mom,

im not home for the holidays this year. but i am
in reflection. of the change and transitions.
moving back home after college felt like a huge disapointment
you never knew the woman i became to be
i fault you for keeping the mold
and never getting to know the real me
and so we argue
you yell
and i blame everyone else

seems like
we work better apart
when u can only give me updates
and never see my pain
or not see me

but
over the years
i have seen you stress
smile
and struggle
most of all for us
your children
never did i want that for me
the only daughter
last chance for change in our family
since my brothers led astray

moved away to a big city
despite your holding on to me
and every few months
i wrote my goals
graduate college
did that
only in the family w my b.a
dont get pregnant- have nieces and nephews to take a baby’s place
be better than I left

find me
find peace
freedom
explore
life
find balance
find stability


and in the back of my head
to be better than you
in the back of my head
to prove u wrong
to find my dreams
not yours
but most of all
be better than the struggles I seen
you go thru

and now
faced with adversity
life
the reoccurance of spirals
slants
car accidents
depression
confusion
panic attacks
when giving up
seems easier than going on
and you have no idea how my day is..

i think about you.
and how i always wanted to be better....
when now i aim to be
you

to make it through my struggles
to make it through
to be strong
determined
dedicated
hopeful
and
now is when i aim to be
you.

jus last week i told you i was going to get help
and updated you on my situation
your words
be the strong woman i raised
keep lingering

And thank God I have someone to keep me hoping.

merry christmas
 
wow.....headed in the right direction and feel all your inner beings here as u let da
pages kiss da un song pain and now uplifting to a woman of greatness has proven
all and all wrong.......keep ya head up and keep movin strong ya there sis..u go Daroc
 
Life is filled with experiences that make us question another's life, even someone as close to us as our mother, until we go through such pains, and then we understand and appreciate. You are climbing up a mountain, and I feel that you now have that added strength to forge ahead. So good to read you again poetess. Peace to you.
 
I understand this cycle so well. When I was little i try to step out and prove better and now I strive just to be able to be half the woman of strength she is. It took some living to see that she was doing the best she could do. This was well written and heartfelt. Make me want to write my own dear mother ...
 

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