Black Poetry : dear mom

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  1. daroc

    daroc Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    dear mom,

    im not home for the holidays this year. but i am
    in reflection. of the change and transitions.
    moving back home after college felt like a huge disapointment
    you never knew the woman i became to be
    i fault you for keeping the mold
    and never getting to know the real me
    and so we argue
    you yell
    and i blame everyone else

    seems like
    we work better apart
    when u can only give me updates
    and never see my pain
    or not see me

    but
    over the years
    i have seen you stress
    smile
    and struggle
    most of all for us
    your children
    never did i want that for me
    the only daughter
    last chance for change in our family
    since my brothers led astray

    moved away to a big city
    despite your holding on to me
    and every few months
    i wrote my goals
    graduate college
    did that
    only in the family w my b.a
    dont get pregnant- have nieces and nephews to take a baby’s place
    be better than I left

    find me
    find peace
    freedom
    explore
    life
    find balance
    find stability


    and in the back of my head
    to be better than you
    in the back of my head
    to prove u wrong
    to find my dreams
    not yours
    but most of all
    be better than the struggles I seen
    you go thru

    and now
    faced with adversity
    life
    the reoccurance of spirals
    slants
    car accidents
    depression
    confusion
    panic attacks
    when giving up
    seems easier than going on
    and you have no idea how my day is..

    i think about you.
    and how i always wanted to be better....
    when now i aim to be
    you

    to make it through my struggles
    to make it through
    to be strong
    determined
    dedicated
    hopeful
    and
    now is when i aim to be
    you.

    jus last week i told you i was going to get help
    and updated you on my situation
    your words
    be the strong woman i raised
    keep lingering

    And thank God I have someone to keep me hoping.

    merry christmas
     
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    wow.....headed in the right direction and feel all your inner beings here as u let da
    pages kiss da un song pain and now uplifting to a woman of greatness has proven
    all and all wrong.......keep ya head up and keep movin strong ya there sis..u go Daroc
     
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    Life is filled with experiences that make us question another's life, even someone as close to us as our mother, until we go through such pains, and then we understand and appreciate. You are climbing up a mountain, and I feel that you now have that added strength to forge ahead. So good to read you again poetess. Peace to you.
     
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    Beautiful piece sis, :bowdown: thanks for inviting us in this piece.
     
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    I understand this cycle so well. When I was little i try to step out and prove better and now I strive just to be able to be half the woman of strength she is. It took some living to see that she was doing the best she could do. This was well written and heartfelt. Make me want to write my own dear mother ...
     
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    thanks

    thank you everyone for your kind words
    and watz.. its good to read myself again to...
    the dark, the emotional, and the sunny.. and happy
    writing again feels so good

    happy holidays
     
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    HODEE Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Welcome Home Daroc
    So good to see you posting again
    You so deep.:teach:


    Growth puts sunshine over head


    I love your poem to dear mom
    I am going to call my mother again. It is going to shock her...
     
  8. daroc

    daroc Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    morning

    hodee,
    glad i back as well
    and happy to have encouraged the passing of the love
    im sure ur mother will appreciate it
    as much as mine will appreciate this for xmas
     
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    i felt your poem

    i found that you gain so much more by fighting through as you have found too.

    give praise to you and your family

    blessings
     
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    oh sister daroc *sigh*
    I understand this on so many levels sister
    A relationship between a mother and daughter isnt always hunky dory
    and in many cases there are feelings so intense that so much often goes unsaid
    get your vent on sister... its good to read you again
     
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