lord, i cannot take it, i need your help because i have failed with everyone else my tears stain my pillow and sleep doesn't stay longer than 2 hours I just want to live my life like i used to, but i cant even walk without being devoured- by my past mistakes and my present regrets I need your guidance and strength I can only be strong for so long, I can't keep carrying everyone's dreams on my shoulders I keep believing its going to get better, but it gets worse as I get older I know you have blessed me with many talents, but lord, I get so lonely... So lonely... People come in and out my life, never bother to stay I watch the clock, I hear the air pass, and I watch the seasons change Nobody understands, nobody listens, nobody tries to look through my eyes I try to understand, I try to listen, I try to look through their eyes but I just get hypnotized I am trying to be a better person, Im trying to make things right But Lord, its hard, its sooo hard, living this type of life I dont ask for much, I dont desire money or the finer things I just want a friend who understands and wants me for me and not my talents I just need you... I just need unconditional love.... Is that too much to ask for? I am tired of trying to mend my broken heart I am tired of trying to control my twisted emotions I just need you... Why dont you come and rescue me...? Please, just one day... I just want to feel free, I want to feel loved I know I dont deserve it, but I need you... I love you.... Amen.