Suddenly something happens your whole world looks different leaving you feeling anything but indifferent some quick blow that reminds you of all the things you ought to do of all the things that you have to say before those important go away my friends father has passed children never think their parents won't outlast and then so suddenly it ends and you're left alone to contend wondering when the pain will end my father and I have become best friends going to basketball games, playing ball can't even think about ever receiving that call tears well up and then spring forth will my father know how much I think he's worth will he know how much i love him it would be like a phantom limb always reaching out to hold him near how would i ever persevere? after counting to ten i pick up the phone and dial a number thats always been home "daddy its your baby girl," i think about how my hair he'd curl "Sunday the Knicks play the Cavaliers ya want to go see LeBron and jeer?" "Baby girl, you and me, MSG, it's a date." "I promise daddy I won't be late. Love you"