i could try to understand
why everything in my life
seems to fall apart
especially those closest to my heart
why i keep pushing when
i really want you near
and why it is i still jump in fear
at every loud noise and when voices rise
why i try to stab before
i'm attacked and why i
simply don't go after what i lack
i could try to understand
but the facts remain
I accept these things
will stay the same
and now, when i want things right
when i am tired and trying to
give up this internal fight
why does everything i touch
still end up corrupt
you think its your luck thats
got you down and out
but its another page
in the chapter of my life
i am only your captor
why everything in my life
seems to fall apart
especially those closest to my heart
why i keep pushing when
i really want you near
and why it is i still jump in fear
at every loud noise and when voices rise
why i try to stab before
i'm attacked and why i
simply don't go after what i lack
i could try to understand
but the facts remain
I accept these things
will stay the same
and now, when i want things right
when i am tired and trying to
give up this internal fight
why does everything i touch
still end up corrupt
you think its your luck thats
got you down and out
but its another page
in the chapter of my life
i am only your captor