Black Poetry : closure 03/30/01

Discussion in 'Black Poetry - Get Your Flow On!' started by wildflower7, Apr 2, 2001.

  1. wildflower7

    wildflower7 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    i tend to deny myself to have feelings
    for some things
    then this morning i found myself crying
    crying a grieving cry
    and i realized it's because
    i don't have closure
    it dawned on me where i was when it ended
    i was in the place of willingness to move on
    and love another and he was my focal point
    i cared about him far more than i allowed myself
    to realize
    and my reckless behaviour proved my denial
    and i think i hurt his feelings
    but i'll never truly know
    i know that my feelings were hurt but i couldn't ask anything of him
    that wasn't fair
    and i couldn't ask him later to have this
    closure conversation with me because
    that was selfish and unfair
    and i wanted to still be friends with him
    because he is such a great man
    and he was such a good friend
    but how could i ask that of him
    i had been selfish enough with him
    sitting on my swing on my porch
    the thought crossed my mind that
    the "him" smell i remember is now
    her "him" smell and she knows it
    and she has intuition about him
    and she holds him and kisses him
    and he does the same for her
    and they're in love
    perfect for each other
    and he and i were never meant to be
    because he deserved more than i could offer
    he deserved better than me
    and he wasn't meant for me
    so, i'm coming to all these conclusions
    and i miss my friend
    and all i can do is cry
    and let it all go eventually
    because i'm holding it all right now.
     
  2. 8th wonder

    8th wonder Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    That was very touching dear poet.
    Believe me...TIME heals all things...
    Welcome to the family..

    8th Wonder...
     
  3. blakverb

    blakverb Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    "7"

    this was fantabulous, but, from you that's all I expect. CLASSIC wildflower7.

    (we gone do the book)

    one love, blak


    (I'm glad you made it)
     
  4. dnommo

    dnommo Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    wow...

    wildflower it seems i am coming in at the end of something that brought you joy many times over. my heart goes to you but i am releived to know that you have turned to the pen to let go...
     
  5. alyce

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    this speaks

    volumes to me; how life/love can deal us that two-edged sword...how emotions we thought we neatly tucked away...re~surface ~ due to changes we've made...commitments we've moved ahead with....wondering 'what if'. But our hearts have always held the answer.

    ...yet we'll hold on until we don't need to any more, using every argument, every scenario, every piece of the puzzle to re-set a stage that's already dark~ all the players been long gone. Closure happens when we turn our backs and accept the bottom line...and no longer return to re-write it...

    ...until then...stay strong.


    Feelin alladis, lil sis!

    Thank you for sharing...
     
  6. Destee

    Destee destee.com STAFF

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    Welcome ~ Welcome ~ Welcome

    :wave: :wave: :wave:

    Welcome ~ Welcome ~ Welcome

    Haaaaaaaaayy Gurlie!!!
    So good to be reading your flow up in here!
    love this peace ... beautifully written

    give us more!

    :heart:

    Destee
     
  7. GQ

    GQ Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Wildflower,

    Emotion packed for sure!!! Feelin' it!!!

    Peace
    GQ
     
  8. wildflower7

    wildflower7 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    oooohh weeee! all the love all the love. i'm overwhelmed and so happy to be in my new home. it's so comfy here.
    and alyce, you know EXACTLY what i'm sayin, that's why you my sista/friend.
    -7
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    so glad to feel u on des piece
    WELCOME HOME IN DA PLAYGROUND
    OF MANY FACES.....FLOW ON MY
    APRILFLOWER OF LOVE
     
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    * in my versace's *

    7,

    no, i haven't read this piece yet, but i remember you
    as one of my favorite poetesses...

    *shall read later on*
    lol
     
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