I once felt the greatest pleasure of my life
To be followed by the greatest pain
After my tears stopped and my smile showed
I realized my losses and what I had to gain
I tried to play the love game
In the same way that it played me
Had me strung out on passionate love
So much that I was too d@mn blind to see
I peeped him from afar a few months after
And we got to know each other through friends
I started off mean as hell, he tried to run game
Then we kicked it off as close friends
Darn, I told him a lot of thing i didn't tell my own peeps
I was just comfortable like that
But I NEVER told him about my past
it wasn't going down like that
But one thing led to another,
I found myself in his bed
And though it took us a while to get there
I had such a feeling of dread
That man made love to me....
He made love to my body and caressed my mind
He kissed, held, and talked to me
I cried sliently when he faced me from behind
I didn't get caught up like that last time
It wasn't even close to it
I blew him off in everyway
I treated him like complete ****
And to me, I kept thinking cut him off
I shut off total communication
But hey, I just didn't want to get hurt again!
Like anybody else in my situation
I wanted to hurt him in the way that K had hurt me
To me, it wasn't fair in the way I had been done
I didn't deserve how my first love treated me
I wanted to do the same to someone
But....I couldn't even do it anymore
To someone who had my total affection
I loved him totally and complete
I didn't want to push him in another's direction
Took me a while,but I am with my friend
Not in a relationship,we just chill
And if feelings get too intense one day
We'll just keep it real
I almost lost the one for me
Because I was so distant to him
My love shined through my stupid ways
I couldn't do it.....not to him
To be followed by the greatest pain
After my tears stopped and my smile showed
I realized my losses and what I had to gain
I tried to play the love game
In the same way that it played me
Had me strung out on passionate love
So much that I was too d@mn blind to see
I peeped him from afar a few months after
And we got to know each other through friends
I started off mean as hell, he tried to run game
Then we kicked it off as close friends
Darn, I told him a lot of thing i didn't tell my own peeps
I was just comfortable like that
But I NEVER told him about my past
it wasn't going down like that
But one thing led to another,
I found myself in his bed
And though it took us a while to get there
I had such a feeling of dread
That man made love to me....
He made love to my body and caressed my mind
He kissed, held, and talked to me
I cried sliently when he faced me from behind
I didn't get caught up like that last time
It wasn't even close to it
I blew him off in everyway
I treated him like complete ****
And to me, I kept thinking cut him off
I shut off total communication
But hey, I just didn't want to get hurt again!
Like anybody else in my situation
I wanted to hurt him in the way that K had hurt me
To me, it wasn't fair in the way I had been done
I didn't deserve how my first love treated me
I wanted to do the same to someone
But....I couldn't even do it anymore
To someone who had my total affection
I loved him totally and complete
I didn't want to push him in another's direction
Took me a while,but I am with my friend
Not in a relationship,we just chill
And if feelings get too intense one day
We'll just keep it real
I almost lost the one for me
Because I was so distant to him
My love shined through my stupid ways
I couldn't do it.....not to him