My dear brother; your spirit spoke to me long before i met you, long before i loved you; long before i made love to you. brother, i summoned for about 20 years, i felt your touch for years i cried so many tears longin for you to be here. you wanted me too, inspite of your marriage your divorce and through your kids still i came out with the highest bid in the beginging you patiently waited until i recognized you you followed my steps until i knew it was you you wrote me beautiful words then i knew it was you now, that i am completely opened to you you seem like i am not what you want to do i must be disillusioned you must understand that i will not hurt you i will love you endlessly i am what you need i am real with mine you will see in time close the door on your negative past i am here and i am going to last black love is so vast please understand that this is not to infer that i persued this wonderful man, while he was married. i merely compared what i was doing to what he was doing during certain time periods. i realized that where i was trying to go, he was in this particular place. i know that had i had the opportunity to be there, we would have gotten together then, but i guess, now is our time.