Black Short Stories : Blaming Daddy

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  1. Wisdom7

    Wisdom7 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Life as a child was a terrible pain,
    Parents divorced when I was thirteen
    Daddy said if we’d stay with him
    We wouldn’t have to leave our friends
    And could still see mommy again and again
    Not true, refused to let us see mommy for 5 long years
    Which in a young girls life, seems like forever
    Daddy was strict, extension cords especially for me
    Sister was the favorite I felt so lonely
    Into adult life, nothing was going right
    I blamed daddy
    Always chose the wrong man and when it came to an end
    I blamed daddy, how could a man love me if daddy didn’t
    When the job wasn’t going well, it was me stupid as hell
    That’s what daddy had said sometimes
    I held on to bad memories of daddy for a long time
    Made sure I didn’t forget, and told every friend I had
    Made sure they couldn’t forget and if they did, I told them again
    Now in the hospital, losing my baby
    Doctors said he was healthy and strong, but the stress in my life
    Pushed him through the canal and depleted my water
    As he kicked deliriously inside of me til he died
    I wanted to die with him
    As I birthed him, I stared at his tiny body in my hand
    10 little fingers, 10 little toes, what did I do to deserve this!
    I couldn’t blame daddy anymore, this resulted from my choices
    I knew I no longer wanted or respected the man who gave me his seed
    Why did I continue to let him in
    I knew there were people in my life always stressing me
    Why did I call them friend
    As I went back to visit daddy
    He took us to the old military base, which was after 911
    Looking around everything changed, guns were drawn at the gate
    Concrete walls in the structure of a maze
    To halt anyone trying to rush through
    Green tanks everywhere, soldiers ready to protect
    I had never seen the base in this state
    And for years I hadn’t cared or even thought about them
    I just wanted to cry in shame when faced with the reality
    They really were risking their lives to protect even me
    As we passed the old house where we grew up
    Memories of daddy in his young thirties and one salary
    Raising me, my sister, my mom’s neice and his neice
    14, 15, 16, & 17, boy did we give him trouble
    Flashbacks of daddy teaching me to drive
    Although I failed 3 times, and scared the sh___t out of him
    with my driving and streams of curse words flew out his mouth
    He still continued to place his life in my hands until I got it
    College graduation, daddy had the camcorder
    When we watched the tape, we saw everyone get their degree
    Except sis and me, all we heard was “That’s my babies!”
    In daddy's excitement he dropped the camcorder and we weren’t on tape
    I spent a large amount of time blaming daddy for my life
    And held onto a lot of anger which only made me age
    But now I undersdand that daddy’s mother raised him the same
    He showed his loved the best way he could
    And now that I'm older, I realize it was more than enough
    Now in his late 50’s daddy and his wife
    Of course he's changed his stict ways
    Have taken in 2 more teen lives from a crack addicted mom
    Three years ago my foster sisters were 3 years behind their school mates
    Now today, they are at the top of their class
    Daddy apologized to mommy for all the pain he's caused
    And she's finally stopped the anger and pain and forgiven him
    And so have I. I guess I was holding on to all the bad
    And didn't even think of the good. I'm glad I realized before too late
    Daddy is a great man!
     
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    daddy is one to notice love this story ....is it a part 2
     
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    I enjoyed this

    it reflected stages in mentality
    immature to mature.
    with time comes experience, then
    wisdom... and the ability to forgive.


    thanks for sharing

    Coco
     
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    Thanks, Rich--I might make a part 2. I called him this morning just to tell him I loved him, he was so happy, it made me want to cry.

    Thanks for reading cocobutteryskin-Sometimes its hard to see good out of bad. The love I thought I lacked when I was young, made me give even more especially to kids as I got older. Maybe that's what The Most High wanted..

    Life's a blessing!
     
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    YOU GO THROUGH THESE THINGS TO SEE HOW MUCH YOUR FATHER REALLY DID LOVE YOU BECAUSE ME AND MY DAD GO THROUGH THE SAME THINGS AND LIKE U SAID THAT IS THE WAY THAT THEY WERE TAUGHT, BUT HE HAS HELPED YOU FOR THE BETTER AT LIFE...... A DADDY IS SOMETHING GOOD TO HAVE. THANK YOU BECAUSE YOU HAVE SHOULD ME HOW IMPORTANT IT IS TO BE THANKFUL YOU HAVE ONE...........
     
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    this one hit so close to home. yeah sometimes we dont see the faults within ourselves and go blame the one who we think are against us. sometimes in the midst of drama we now realize the mistake our fathers try to shield us from. nice story flow on poet.
     
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    waiting on your part two of this , i'm sure you have a lot to tell !
     
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