- Oct 26, 2004
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(Alarm clock goes off)
*sigh*
I woke up this morning and just wanted to scream,
Because today I turned bitter sweet 16.
Where is my ecstasy, why am I feeling such pain?
Why does it feel as if I’m not living, I’m just existing, and its all in vain?
The thoughts that are going on in my head
Are of those things that most of us dread.
*thinking*…
“This means I’m one step closer to death, to that day when I will willingly take my last breath…
Can someone please turn back the hands of time,
Its like just two years ago it was my grandmothers turn,
and now its almost mine”…
God knows its not normal for a child to feel this way
But I just cant help it,
Cuz I just turned bitter sweet 16 today…
I just want to go back to sleep and dream it all away
Hoping and praying that when I awake,
this will all be yesterday…
Because I hate the fact that I’m bitter sweet 16 today
*phone rings*
“Happy Birthday Baby…..!”…recites an all too familiar voice…
“Please don’t remind me”…is how I instantaneously respond
And some how it wasn’t by choice…
“Awwwwwe, you should be happy that God has blessed you to see another year…”
At that moment, my eyes swell up with immense tears, And
Wet, salty balm shells flow and eventually fall from my cheeks
And at that moment my soul reaches a breach with my emotions
And I decide that I should be grateful for my time left here…
And really, I don’t have anything to fear anyway…
For I am truly bless that I am bitter sweet 16 today…
*sigh*
I woke up this morning and just wanted to scream,
Because today I turned bitter sweet 16.
Where is my ecstasy, why am I feeling such pain?
Why does it feel as if I’m not living, I’m just existing, and its all in vain?
The thoughts that are going on in my head
Are of those things that most of us dread.
*thinking*…
“This means I’m one step closer to death, to that day when I will willingly take my last breath…
Can someone please turn back the hands of time,
Its like just two years ago it was my grandmothers turn,
and now its almost mine”…
God knows its not normal for a child to feel this way
But I just cant help it,
Cuz I just turned bitter sweet 16 today…
I just want to go back to sleep and dream it all away
Hoping and praying that when I awake,
this will all be yesterday…
Because I hate the fact that I’m bitter sweet 16 today
*phone rings*
“Happy Birthday Baby…..!”…recites an all too familiar voice…
“Please don’t remind me”…is how I instantaneously respond
And some how it wasn’t by choice…
“Awwwwwe, you should be happy that God has blessed you to see another year…”
At that moment, my eyes swell up with immense tears, And
Wet, salty balm shells flow and eventually fall from my cheeks
And at that moment my soul reaches a breach with my emotions
And I decide that I should be grateful for my time left here…
And really, I don’t have anything to fear anyway…
For I am truly bless that I am bitter sweet 16 today…