Black Poetry : back at one

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  1. sheikdadon

    sheikdadon Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    im back at one like brian mcknight
    sick of da cursing disrespect and fights.
    you said you wouldn't hit me ever again
    yet you have over and over I can't win
    you argue w/ me, I ask that u talk
    I vent by leaving but you force me to stay
    im seething yet you block my way
    no matter what im always to blame
    adolescence till now its no change
    I feel boxed in w/ happiness outta range
    we made this a home yet I feel like an outsider
    I try to not piss you off and make you mad
    I feel like when I was younger but im older then u dats sad
    you tell me I make you act like this
    I asked to be ridiculed and punched? aint that bout a b+++h?
    I feel like a slave who has to deal w/ a unpredictable owner
    my thoughts aren't logical?! but yours are?
    others judge wut u tell them not my side
    but ya head gassed cuz for u they seem to ride
    yea you were here thru tough times but you chose to be
    if I do from the heart the person isn't indebted to me
    yet I feel like u think I owe u? my money helped u move n
    but how quickly we forget in a heated debate
    I feel powerless here just like the times I was raped
    u say u pay everything like I don't contribute a dime
    u openly let me know u got the upper hand all da time
    no I don't feel like this is my home Im removable like a sign
    I need me time but you're too clingy
    if im self absorbed u say I have an attitude
    all this time I shouldve just been w/ a dude
    nothing I do satisfies u. I gotta go but don't have family near
    the familiarirty of uprooting is in the air
    this is where I disappear into the night never to return
    a damaged soul weighed down can never float...
    im losing me by being silent and submitting to u
    im losing myself by allowing you to emotionally tear me
    im speeding outta control n rage fills me....
    NO MORE HUMILITY
     
  2. watzinaname

    watzinaname Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Sometimes we go back to the same because it has become habit, even if we're returning to hurt. To change is scary, even if the change is for the better. Change is needed here to survive, and I hope the subject of this piece has changed or will asap. Intensely written.
     
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    Thanks for sharing


    Welcome to Destee sheikdadon

    Powerful read.

    Thanks so much for sharing something so personal. I see where you find yourself. Trapped wanting and needing to leave. Dependant yet needing to be free.

    No more mildness.
    No more shyness
    No more strength to fight

    Being back at one is a lonely place.
    Feeling like you is in this by yourself most of the time.
    Finding lonely moments while surrounded by many.

    " If I do from the heart the person isn’t indebted to me
    Yet I feel like u think I owe u? "


    You are so right here.

    Some people do and feel you owe them.
    They build up and save what they feel are brownie points.
    Wanting to drop the trump card and demand what they want.
    Not knowing every step is a negotiation.
    Not knowing that compromise is part of the process.

    When you entered the relationship you sailed
    in aboard your own vehicle.

    Even if your ship had holes.
    It was your vessel.

    Along comes another.

    They help you repair some damage.

    Then they sank your ship
    so you can never sail away.

    Always know what ship you are on.
    When you are I a relationship.
    Never give your vessel.

    Tie it to theirs, or they tie theirs to yours.

    So when the journey is over... As the Commodores once said...

    SAIL….ON Honey…...sweet times never seemed so good.

    That means. No one misses the water until the well is dry.

    When you’re gone... A wake up call comes.

    It is too late, too torn to continue.....SAIL ON….Change the course.

    There is no relationship unless a woman wants it.
    No conversation. No time. No love.

    No more fussing.. No more fighting. No hands.

    Talk later when cooler heads prevail.
     
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    powerful piece poet...
    if u don't stand for something u will fall for anything...

    one love
    khasm
     
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    Make note that He can go to the Gym and work-out on a punching bag, ...for FREE! ...you however, have a price to being his punching bag, it's called DEATH
    The best pleasure you can provide for him at this time is to wear-out the soles of ya:run: shoes...like Yesterday
    Thanks for sharing.
     
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    enough is enough

    you can only take so much
    you can only do so much

    i'm feeling your rage

    but more so i'm feeling your power
     
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    Whew!! *holding my heart*

    My sweet sister! What an awesome piece! Thank you for trusting your most inward feelings and emotions and sharing with us! Even though we are not physically there with you, we love you just the same because you are one of us!

    There is such a thing as a point of no return. Never be fooled that you are powerless. Never believe that you cannot rise up! The choice is yours alone though and no one else can make it for you. I don't have to know what you look like to know that you are beautiful because God made you that way. Whatever bit of self-respect and worth you have left (because I know you have been stripped of much), gather it up quickly and take it with you!!

    You are strong and have everything you need to make a change!!!
     
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    deep expression here feeling every word
     
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    This gave me chills
    Its amazing the things that go through your head when you are still in the heart of a conflict.
    Striking read :read: :thinking:
     
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    FLow on this was real and touching.
    No More hurt....Be free.