It is like being born in the middle of a war and told who to hate but not how to fight the war and then sent to the enemy to be "educated".the system of white supremacy is at fault.
it is our job to defeat that system.
It sounds like you are making excuses long after the fundamental problem has gone away. But they may teach us to hate reading by forcing us to read boring, useless garbage. I accidentally used science fiction to immunize myself.centuries of being killed for reading may have something to do with it.