A married woman's last vent
...9/13/02-1:10PM...
After I am dead...
Dear God, let it not be said
That I was,
an ignorant...foolish
woman that was unGodly and
nasty, and weird and
shameful because---
I loved her
She is a woman
That held my heart
for the majority of my adult life
I yearned for her
until my heart ached
And my iii's leaked
as I lay next to him..silent, facing the wall...
I loved her
But I stayed with him
I wanted her
But I stayed with him
I loved her in mind
because loving her is a "sin"
I loved her in my mind until I lost it
My mind that is---
I lost it when I couldn't hold her
I lost it when I couldn't smell her
I lost it
I lost my mind
I died the day I found out
That she loved me too but stayed
with her "him"
A heart attack---
they say that's what I had...
kicking, screaming, and scratching my heart fought itself into eternal exhaustion
and now
I sleep, silently...
venting because my life was a lie so I could get to heaven...
~Story
*watch the PotaToe throwin*
:x:
...9/13/02-1:10PM...
After I am dead...
Dear God, let it not be said
That I was,
an ignorant...foolish
woman that was unGodly and
nasty, and weird and
shameful because---
I loved her
She is a woman
That held my heart
for the majority of my adult life
I yearned for her
until my heart ached
And my iii's leaked
as I lay next to him..silent, facing the wall...
I loved her
But I stayed with him
I wanted her
But I stayed with him
I loved her in mind
because loving her is a "sin"
I loved her in my mind until I lost it
My mind that is---
I lost it when I couldn't hold her
I lost it when I couldn't smell her
I lost it
I lost my mind
I died the day I found out
That she loved me too but stayed
with her "him"
A heart attack---
they say that's what I had...
kicking, screaming, and scratching my heart fought itself into eternal exhaustion
and now
I sleep, silently...
venting because my life was a lie so I could get to heaven...
~Story
*watch the PotaToe throwin*
:x: