Black Poetry : Alicia's Testimony

soulful2006

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Standing in the kitchen with
The cold blade resting on my wrist
I think to myself this is it
I will end my life right here today
In the hopes that I don't have to pay the price
Of living another day of my life
Praying the whole while
God please don't let that little child walk through
that door and see his sister
Bleeding to death on the floor
Thoughts of why I was chosen
To bear the pain to live
My life in this constant rain
To always feel like I can not maintain
The challenges I've faced all about
To be thrown away
In A single moment in time
My body and spirit
disconnect and that would be it
Not another day of watching my life waste away
In the endless cycle of he say she say
That plagued me for so long
No this is not another sad song
I really almost killed myself
my life was nothing but a living hell
And I thought about for it so long
Just press down as hard as you can
then put the knife in the bloody hand and
Do the same thing to the other side
You can do it if you try
After the right arm is done
It will be much easier to do the other one
Just do it
you know you don't want to live
Don't worry about heaven you don't care if God
forgives
These thoughts running through my head
Eyes tired of crying and blood shot red
All for the sake of takin my own life
truth is in those situations you
Don't really cares if its right
Then just when the deed was to be done
Somebody opened the door
And my mind went back to the prayer I had
Prayed before
The thought of him seeing me
bleed to death on the floor
I drop the knife right then and there
For my Life my Little
Brother had just spared

My brother will probably never know that he kept me from making the biggest mistake and He wil never know trully undertsand what he could have seen. But this is my testimony.
 

$$RICH$$

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My my my !
wit tears in my eye
life is a gift
a gem to live
belief in faith
and Gods holy will

he say she say is a myth
why worry about such stuff
wrap ya life's heart around
thy father as he make changes
for it was he whom sent thy child
within your grasp to say no to look
and save thee from desastering harm
wit a tear in my eye
praying asking why
i feel da flicked pain that stain da brain
i feel the beat of heart that's broken
i taste da warth of his sadness
but i feel the joy of spare and the mend
to thy heart the hope for new light and
his grace that will comfort you

sadly yet ya testimony was felt deeply
let all troubles be cast away from thy soul
and breathe again in better days ahead as God is and prayer is the key .

wit a tear in my eye....
 

soulful2006

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Thank you If not for writing I probaly would have revisited the same episode and than god I found a release to plant my feet in
 

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That he said she said is something that carries over into adult life. Seems like when we really have something together, something special about ourselves, other people find reason to talk about us, even long after they're old enough to know better. I especially know this is true, because there is definitely something special, about you. And I'm sure your little brother sees it in you too. :)
 

soulful2006

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Thank you for noticing something in me.
I try very hard to see it in myself when I get low enough to not know which way to g So I don't relive this pain again.
 

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