Black Poetry : Alicia's Testimony

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    soulful2006 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Standing in the kitchen with
    The cold blade resting on my wrist
    I think to myself this is it
    I will end my life right here today
    In the hopes that I don't have to pay the price
    Of living another day of my life
    Praying the whole while
    God please don't let that little child walk through
    that door and see his sister
    Bleeding to death on the floor
    Thoughts of why I was chosen
    To bear the pain to live
    My life in this constant rain
    To always feel like I can not maintain
    The challenges I've faced all about
    To be thrown away
    In A single moment in time
    My body and spirit
    disconnect and that would be it
    Not another day of watching my life waste away
    In the endless cycle of he say she say
    That plagued me for so long
    No this is not another sad song
    I really almost killed myself
    my life was nothing but a living hell
    And I thought about for it so long
    Just press down as hard as you can
    then put the knife in the bloody hand and
    Do the same thing to the other side
    You can do it if you try
    After the right arm is done
    It will be much easier to do the other one
    Just do it
    you know you don't want to live
    Don't worry about heaven you don't care if God
    forgives
    These thoughts running through my head
    Eyes tired of crying and blood shot red
    All for the sake of takin my own life
    truth is in those situations you
    Don't really cares if its right
    Then just when the deed was to be done
    Somebody opened the door
    And my mind went back to the prayer I had
    Prayed before
    The thought of him seeing me
    bleed to death on the floor
    I drop the knife right then and there
    For my Life my Little
    Brother had just spared

    My brother will probably never know that he kept me from making the biggest mistake and He wil never know trully undertsand what he could have seen. But this is my testimony.
     
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    My my my !
    wit tears in my eye
    life is a gift
    a gem to live
    belief in faith
    and Gods holy will

    he say she say is a myth
    why worry about such stuff
    wrap ya life's heart around
    thy father as he make changes
    for it was he whom sent thy child
    within your grasp to say no to look
    and save thee from desastering harm
    wit a tear in my eye
    praying asking why
    i feel da flicked pain that stain da brain
    i feel the beat of heart that's broken
    i taste da warth of his sadness
    but i feel the joy of spare and the mend
    to thy heart the hope for new light and
    his grace that will comfort you

    sadly yet ya testimony was felt deeply
    let all troubles be cast away from thy soul
    and breathe again in better days ahead as God is and prayer is the key .

    wit a tear in my eye....
     
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    soulful2006 Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    Thank you If not for writing I probaly would have revisited the same episode and than god I found a release to plant my feet in
     
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    That he said she said is something that carries over into adult life. Seems like when we really have something together, something special about ourselves, other people find reason to talk about us, even long after they're old enough to know better. I especially know this is true, because there is definitely something special, about you. And I'm sure your little brother sees it in you too. :)
     
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    Thank you for noticing something in me.
    I try very hard to see it in myself when I get low enough to not know which way to g So I don't relive this pain again.
     
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    So obvious to me, and to so many others as well, that you are a shining star. When you get really low, and can't see clearly through to the next day, try getting thru that second. Then, the minutes will be easier to build on. We love you!!!!
     
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    Thank you love like that doesn't come around often and when it does I like to try to hold on to it
     
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    remember when that low point hit come visit here surely
    you are a gem a prime jewel and a sweet goddess let no one
    bring that down ......keep writting , expressing i'm listening feeling
    you and understand ...much love and blessings upon you ...........
     
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    Thank you I don't think I'll ever be low with the support I get here and if ever I am I know somebody is there to lift me up.
     
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    indeed my beautiful sista indeed we lean on each other daily in
    and for support mentally , spiritrually and morally
     
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