i dont know what it is about u, but i cant seem 2 get u out of my head n heart. even though i got a man who loves me 4 real. there r times when u pop into my head unwellcomed, i could b havin the best time, n here u come, remindin me of back in the day when i used 2 see u, n id start smilin like i had no sense. smilin like i had no sense is somethin i used 2 do alot, n probably would do it again at the sight of u. u know, the butterflies in ur stomach, the sweaty hands, the interior shaking, this all happens 2 me when i see u. its real f%^&ed up, cuz sometimes i still wanna mess w/u. n i know u wouldnt deny me, if i wanted 2. all i'd have 2 do is come 2 u, n i'd get what i want, but oly 4 a moment. u see, i got a man, n he wants me 4eva, not that some of the time ****, that u used 2 put me through, had me cryin cuz i loved u. n i still do, even though i got someone by my side. i dont understand, now that i got a man, u actin type jealous. i told u many times before, u had ur chance 2 get w/me. so i woke up n realized we were never gonna b 2gether, n i walked into the arms of another. i tried 2 say my good bye's, but it didnt work that way. i still managed 2 see u, n maybe i shouldnt have been schemin, but i did what i had 2 do. i wrote u a letter, sayin that u were my 1st love. now a couple of months later, ur tryin 2 analyze me. its 2 late, now buddy. u should have admitted it 2 urself, n especially 2 me, that u loved me, or at least wanted 2 get w/me.