Black Poetry : A WOMAN BEFORE HER TIME

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  1. Securenote

    Securenote Member MEMBER

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    I was a woman before my time
    No I was not born a woman before my time
    But some D..m man felt it fit that I become
    What he desired in a woman.
    He took away my beauty
    He took away my mind
    He took away all my childhood dreams
    I never knew a child could hate so hard
    The fact is I hated myself as well

    Men were actually not on the top of my list
    Lord knows I have had many of whom I disliked
    But I perform my duties of a woman before her time
    That is what I was taught
    No, let me be truthful
    I HATED THOSE BASTARDS

    I just could not bring myself to transform
    into be something i'm not
    So I dealt with men dealt with men for their needy lust of me
    They were just good enough only to give me my wants
    Lord knows I had much I wanted in the material world

    Look at me so Ugly and used
    I did not have a brain or the looks
    Nor did I feel uplifted inside
    JUST KEEP THE VALUABLES COMING

    The material valuables decorated my life
    Made me more tolerable for me to like
    Yeah. I say like because that is all I could do
    I could not love me
    I hated to look into mirrors
    Mirrors carry reflection!
    Anyway who the hell wanted to see ugly

    I recall winning the beauty contest
    I laughed so hard at those fools
    selecting me to win
    I wished I could buy each and everyone glasses
    but that would cut into my pocket
    and take away from my material valuables
    Now those were my assets in life, and
    Of course they serve as my beauty

    I recalled the wedding
    Not a happy occasion
    you know the one in which I wore white
    "WHITE FOR A VIRGIN"
    Now that was a hardy Joke
    Actually the colors
    black or Navy blue would have been more appealing.
    I can see the groom now really smiling
    Oh what a fool
    Him watching me while I step down the aisle
    Me in my WHITE dress with a cat smile
    Almost peed on myself while taking my vows
    I could not believe I had to say that Nonsense
    Oh well performance is performance
    I am a woman born before my time

    So I did the thing
    Got married and had another child
    I won't say I never loved my babies
    I believe they kept me sane
    I did develop love, but only for my babies
    I protected them like a beast in the wild
    No one was going change not one of my babies
    In the way I was.
    OH HELLLLL NO!

    Marriage presented it's own problems
    for a woman born before her time
    Him asking do you love me
    What the hell is love
    I had to cry laughing
    Don't be a fool and put me on the line
    Can you just play nice and buy me things
    Don't change the game now and bring love into it
    Just be a man and buy me pretty things
    I'll do my best to perform
    As I continue to be the woman I was trained by a man

    I put beauty all over my house
    Everywhere I stacked even in the linen closet
    Not to mention I put on my back as well

    I recall stepping out of the tub one night,
    and there I stood with all the rich bubbles. The Essences and Scent of a body and bathe shop
    Now that was picture one should have capture.
    At that very moment in time
    I felt so volatile
    I placed my hands to face and begin to weep
    My bare body disgusted me that much
    now stripped of covers and showing the truth of a young girl who was forced to be a woman before her time.

    © Copyrighted 9/2004 VR
    a/k/a Secretmemo/Securenote
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  2. 1poetsought

    1poetsought Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    POWERFUL

    Dearest, Rest assured of the significance of your life's experience, as it relates to the importance of this POPWERFUL peice! :flowers:
     
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    although i am still a young lady, i can strongly relate to some of these experiences you describe

    although some are regretted, i look at it as though i would not be who i am today had i not had those experiences.

    scribe on sista.

    :heart: :heart: PLAY :heart: :heart:
     
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    $$RICH$$ Lyon King Admin. STAFF

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    surely been on the scale as this piece scribes i truely relate to this here
    flow on express
     
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    This really touches me. Stay strong, and know you are loved.
     
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    This story, was heart wrenching. The destruction that a single act can cause...you posed this point so clearly here. Well written piece, and I hope it brought you an inkling of peace to write it.
     
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    Very Nice Welcome to Destee Securenote

    I enjoyed the truism in your poem. You have a talent for gathering facts and showing how they relate to life’s pains. Denounce the nonsense.

    Hate the way the system made you. Hate the one's who chose to play you. Dislike them more than hate to be truthful. Because hate has a way of getting to you. Love yourself, find a way. Bring out the love you have to day. Give it to the man you love. Show it exist despite the flood. Of untruth. Unrest. Wrong doings of others. Win back your life and live.

    Being forced to grow before your time. Is getting a child drunk on life’s bitter wine. Things will come and things will go. But let a child take time to know. You can’t rush a flower or plant to grow. It takes time. Adding fertilizer like material things. Confuses the roots of anything.

    So guilt isn’t on you.
    But on those supplying.
    Wrong training and growth that’s dividing.

    The beauty of each person, to blossom right. Into a person that will add to this life. Preying on the young has got to stop. The product produced will make us drop. To a level of misunderstanding. Material things can be so demanding. On the truth.
     
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    Great piece and heart felt. Been there, I know how you feel. Healing begins when you are willing to face it and from what I just read you are on the way. Yes, :happens: but it is what we do after it happens. Do we become the victim or the survivor? I here a survivor in you. Keep facing it so you can conquor it.
     
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    Wow, that was a very moving piece. I hope you are at peave with yourself and know your true worth
     
  10. MzBlkAngel

    MzBlkAngel Well-Known Member MEMBER

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    very heartfelt soul deep moving and also a release of what was like the way you posed this piece

    Peace
    Angel
     
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