I use to be in a state where I could care less about others and their opinion about me. I figure because I am who I am; and my life brought upon different situations I am entitled to feel and act this way! Nobody could tell me anything! I came from parents that didn't understand my plight, just told me the typical words a parent would say but not really listening to their scared daughter! "It's okay Emerald, they're just teasing you because their jealous." "Emerald, you must understand that you will not get along with everyone." "Boys, are FORBIDDEN!" (Which I think most parents think that! As I grew older I really didn't mature as I should but allowed my circumstances of adolesense, mean girls and stereotypes that *I* should fall under, overtake my willpower to be who I am and transform into what I thought people wanted me to be! I started hanging with the wrong crowd because it was easier joining them than to be on the other side...as I thought I would remedy my rough teenage years. Instead I went into a deeper side of misfortune with men that couldn't keep their hands to themselves! That is FORBIDDEN!!! I became a ghost of a person and didn't allow the true me to shine, rather dipped away in a mist of once was to overshadow the pain that never let me sleep. Over time however, and with the blessings of my two children, I've learned to be a better person, mother, sister, daughter, auntie, provider. Mainly through the mercy, and grace of God!!!! I had to escape the old skeleton to be the person I was meant to be. Which meant digging deeper and allow my maturity and wisdom to grow. It wasn't easy, I had to Whip myself into shape! Though, now I can truly say that my mind is in a better place, I'm a wiser person from the old me! I still have trials but who doesn't, I'm just taking it a step at a time!!