Why I disklike being of "mixed race" is primarily because the cultural need for dominance that is exemplified in the social/political/economic environment is replicated within the domestic unit. I have watched and listened to Caucasian parents use emotional, spiritual, mental, and sometimes physical abuse to intimidate and coerce family members into "line". Placing their children in white communities, going to white schools and having to compete in a white work force and not speaking the truth about their potential for success without inherited wealth and credit. I have seen Caucasian parents strip advantages from their mixed children (with some notion of making them strong?) and then tell them to compete and make something of themselves. I have seen families divided and conquered from within, by the use of emotional manipulation, guilt, and disabling the children from leaving the nest. I have seen brothers and sisters who are brown on the outside but for all intensive purposes really just as white copy of the Caucasian role model. Painfully I can see the African parent support this systemic abuse by valueing materialism and status over mental and spiritual liberation, and over true economic freedom. What do you say when Black grandchildren are termed negatively, but White family is encouraged to reproduce? I am against mixed marriages/ partnerships; unless the African / Nubian is fully recognized for their world position, not just in glib talk, but in formality. Unless the African / Nubian is truly free, with their own economic and political willpower, then how can these unions produce an offspring that is able to walk successfully in both worlds? Barack Obama may be a leading example of one such success mind you. The glorification of the beauty and culture often promote further sexualization of the mixed child; a perfect blend of Black and White only to be promoted in objectified terms, allowing the Caucasians further sexual exploitation with a dark partner, but one who is more enculturated into his mannerisms. (see Feast of All Saints, by Anne Rice - fictional historical context) We "mixed stock" may know better the hypocrisy and the subtleties that deny us at all levels. And we bear witness to the adoption of White gods, White mannerism, White culture in order to be accepted and included by the White societies we inevitably are raised in. We can bear further testimony to the difficulty in returning to our communities and trying to understand the backgrounds of our brothers and sisters who may have been raised very differently and do not understand our "mixed minded education". What's funny is that for myself, there is no such thing as "mixed". When I get a form asking for my race i always circle Black and White, cuz I need to make a point to the people asking the stupid questions and reading the forms. Inevitably I know that by default my race is Black. I am not half white because at no time will I ever be called White. At no time will I ever think or behave as a White person. So no, I am not half African I am African because it was born in me and will grow in me as long as I seek to nurture my truth. There can be such challenges within a child of "mixed race" especially when working on higher realms of consciousness and in deprogramming the mind, and repatterning behavior. The internal battle spiritually can be powerful, exhausting and at time frightening. Genetic memories and genetic programs that are at odds with one another - what can I say except that it's so much more than beliefs about "good hair", "educated", "having nice tone", or the best of both worlds. Have I had the best of both worlds? Hmmmm... to a degree. What I enjoyed was seclusion, and some wealth. All things that I was expected to replicate for myself as a Black womban, in spite of the obvious discrimination I faced when I became an adult, discrimination and ignorance perpetrated by both my caretakers and the system I grew up in. I call it discrimination because there is an underlying premise that all members of society are equal, and that if you want something badly enough you can achieve it - even without the obvious advantages needed to acquire the dreams/goals. Discrimnation that seems to disappear if one is willing to follow the path of the White race, and to integrate quietly. Discrimination that seems more blatant if the child chooses to honor and embody an African centered philosophy. This is my truth, it doesn't have to be anyone else's. But, I have chosen to continue my lineage with a Black man, and to raise conscious Black children, it is my dream, my prayers to be able to home school them, rather than subject them to the mind numbing bull crap of Catholic or Public education. It is my dream and my hope to get the heck of this continent and return to the Southern hemisphere where I can see beautiful Black faces in all shades and colors and contribute my energy and my love to a community that nourishes my soul. I will never look back and I will not tell my children to not see color. Love is not blind, it is fully awake and sees very clearly that Love redeems, Love builds, Love acknowledges, and Love saves! Thanks for reading my rant.