I got a new calendar for christmas
so, I mark (along with birthdays and anniversaries
for people who will be strangers to me this time next year
or divorced before the ever celebrate number four)
a BIG red "P" on my calendar.
repetitious in such fate
that it is more likely to come than my
nosey *** aunt for dinner on the 6th.
I question if I will ever be blessed
Two days before nature flows its course
i feel tired, sick . . .hypocondriac
wanting to believe i hold magic inside
wanting to give birth to my pride
wanting and ready for this love in my heart
and making room for a child in my soul
let it happen naturally
i should just leave it in God's hands
i should just stopped wanting
for something so amazing and wonderful
But, the BIG red "P" circled on my calendar
reminds me of my fate month after month
in such a deliberate fashion
i can do nothing but wait
for my unwelcomed guest.
so, I mark (along with birthdays and anniversaries
for people who will be strangers to me this time next year
or divorced before the ever celebrate number four)
a BIG red "P" on my calendar.
repetitious in such fate
that it is more likely to come than my
nosey *** aunt for dinner on the 6th.
I question if I will ever be blessed
Two days before nature flows its course
i feel tired, sick . . .hypocondriac
wanting to believe i hold magic inside
wanting to give birth to my pride
wanting and ready for this love in my heart
and making room for a child in my soul
let it happen naturally
i should just leave it in God's hands
i should just stopped wanting
for something so amazing and wonderful
But, the BIG red "P" circled on my calendar
reminds me of my fate month after month
in such a deliberate fashion
i can do nothing but wait
for my unwelcomed guest.