... 20 years is a heavy lift.It's been a wonderful 20 years ... getting to do what I want to do.
Having a peaceful and respectful place for us.
Thank you all for doing it with me.
Much Much Love and Peace.
Peace and Blessings Family!
Thank you Brother HODEE for being ahead of me again for our birthday celebration!! ...
You are so wonderful, prompting me to get this thread up so we can begin talking about this more officially!
It is not much different for me now, than it has been all of our 20 years. I want to do lots, everything a mind can imagine, but must be happy with us still being here. It has taken much effort to keep us here, I am happy for that. If I were to begin thinking about all that we don't have, and could have, I will start crying.
So rather than that, I immerse myself in what is, and try with my might to stay thankful for it. It's been a long, hard, and sacrificing 20 years, oftentimes wondering if it is the right thing for me to be doing, as I continued forward. It is very easy to shift between what is and what is not, saddened quickly, as seen in these few words already written.
Before I get too caught up, I have to stop myself.
I have to be happy with what is.
I will continue doing my best for us, providing a place where Black people can come together respectfully. I am honored by all of the wonderful Sisters and Brothers that have lent themselves to the effort, giving what they could and would.
20 years ago, I never knew we would make it a day, let alone 20 years.
Now, 20 years later, I still do not know about tomorrow.
I Love You HODEE and Family ...
I have ideas about our 20th year celebration and will be trying to pull them off.
Everything costs money, time, expertise, energy, etc., usually more than I have to give.
We have managed to live, and I hope we will be able to continue doing that, if nothing else.
I really hear you and believe that it has taken you much effort in being here!!!
I am so deeply grateful for you and your sacrifice!!!
Oh My Good God. Thank you so much for your sacrifice. I Hope that one day
you will truly be rewarded, because you are brilliant. I wish I could understand
what you do, and have the kind of professionalism that you do to keep this
community going as it has been. I bow to you, Sister Destee.