The Front Porch : Letter From a Deadbeat to His Son

[skuderjaymes]

so how do we know anything that you say is real?

how do we know anything anybody says on here is real?

 

[skuderjaymes]

From a Father’s Point of View



I guess this is something that I have to live with. There hasn’t been a day when my son hasn’t crossed my mind, every little-league game I see on TV brings back some of the best days of my life when I used to teach him how to catch in the backyard.

Time is running out and before I know it, he will be a man and then it will be that much harder to tell my side of the story. Even though it was easy for me to get up and leave, I still pay the price of leaving my son behind. I know I run the risk of missing out on the chance to teach him some of life’s most intriguing lessons that I have learned over the years.

I often thought about my dad and wonder if it was because of his absence why I end up following in his footstep and treated my son the very same way. These are the questions many men who can afford it, ask their psychiatrist while laying on their couch. I know that there are a lot of people who have negative things to say about me but the only opinion that matters to me is that of my son's.

The feeling of abandonment I know is difficult and I’m sure cannot be easy for a young boy to deal with. I know he has been giving his mother and teachers hell, this pretty much sounds like I will have to face the music and go and rescue my son before some drug dealer gets a hold of him. Its one thing to feel like you have let one person down, but it’s a whole other feeling to think that you have let down an entire generation.

My dad has already done his damage to me and even though I knew better, the fact that I did the same thing he did, only makes me that much more angry. I will not place the blame on him, the blame stops here, I am the reason my son is going through life fatherless, fatherless… it sounds like I’m already dead.

For what it’s worth, things could have been much worse as my mom would always say, I could have been behind bars as so many of my friends from the old neighborhood are or be taken out altogether. So there is no other option, my son deserves to know that his father still exists and that he is very much loved by a man who wants to be in his life.

Peace Poetpreacher,

I like your writing style.. it has a really natural conversational flow to it.
If you were to match it with a more real depiction of this scenario, you could really bring some truth to the surface. This what you've written here is very very conservative.. very safe.. and well known.. it's to the point that one can predict the entire line of thought from the second sentence on. If this is fiction, why not take it somewhere unexpected.. or, at least.. less-expected?


- peace again.. and welcome..

 

[Poetpreacher]

if you are posting fiction why not identify it as such?

 

[Poetpreacher]

Good point James, as I said before I am just finding by way around this site. I'm used to just posting my stories and people who the stories affect would comment. I didn't know that there was a protocol to differentiate between fiction and non -fiction. I will make a notification in future post.

 

[Poetpreacher]

how do we know anything anybody says on here is real?