Brethren your not alone... Im all about working in the "field" rather than lip service at a podium.. im actually launching a record label next month and believe me I make some club bangers... I firmly believe that as yeshua walked with the poor, the meek and the so called wicked that we have to walk amongst our own and build from the ground up and not from the roof down.... The high horse treatment is for napoleon... And he got exiled by his own... I also strongly believe that the end justifies the means... Some people walk in peace, some get it by any means neccessary and some are like kedar in the Quran who although from the outside looking in was commiting sinful acts of wickedness but upon revelation from Thee Creator was serving his( thee creators) will the hole time in due righteousness with proper logic and reason.. Whatever Nature we were fashioned in is the nature in which we should serve the creator... I salute you brethren and anybody who puts forth SINCERE EFFORT to help overcome our struggle... Peace.. Peace..