Destee Let Me Help You Overstand

i say all of this out of love and respect for you Destee

despite whatever you may feel my intent was in the best interest of the "community". i didn't want to become a "distraction".

with that said


i write this not because of the internet because the internet means nothing to me, the people do. Like the people on this site.

i've had the pleasure of meeting people from this site in person. I've been been around since 1999 when you are a webmaster @ afronet. so i've been around.

i'm STILL friends with 3 members from 2001 who are no longer really active here but we have an open dialogue 8 years later.

i have 5 "friends' i known from when we were kids and maybe another 5 extended friends you know people you can give your house keys to having money in your dresser and you KNOW it's all good. (and i don't use FRIEND lightly just throwing it around)

everybody i know can vouch for me, yes i might be hard headed but my
loyalty, commitment and dedication and that dedication extends to beautiful
Black Women such as yourself and the love of Black People in general.

i came to you last night asking for help i didn't come to say goodbye.
i wanted assistance. you offered basically what happens to us when
we call the police for help and we end up getting shot.

we did not come to ambush, we just wanted clarification. and you gave
us that. the only point i was making and ultimately we felt rich was blowing us off. you seem to have a problem with that.

before i continue when lines of communication gets across you get retarded
reactions. why BECAUSE OF THE LACK OF communication. so when one
is left to come up with their own conclusion why do you have a meltdown?

please understand me i'm trying to say this out of love you for.
i love destee.com i loved what you did with afronet. i love what you say is
in your heart regarding black people.

but to kick me out of chat for just asking for 60 seconds to speak was crazy.
you keep saying nobody can shut you up. i'm like DUH? where did that come
from? nobody was trying to shut you up DESTEE you keep repeating the same thing over and over again and repeating help you understand

and i was trying to do that. i just needed a moment. i've always been in your
corner. but i see you have a problem with people you can't mind control.
i could be wrong. it should not be a question of control. we are ALL here
BLACK PEOPLE torn apart trying to take back ANY taste of unity.

overstand me, i don't really care what somebody thinks in the long run
if somebody wants to believe in fairytales and myths that's on them
but OVERSTAND ME, I WOULD NEVER ABANDONED THAT PERSON IN TIME
OF NEED I WILL BE THE ONE STANDING THERE TO LEND A HAND IF I CAN

by me asking to step down as a MOD, was not a reflection on you it was
as REFLECTION on me, i felt because i was engaged in conversations in the open forum area, i was making management look bad. if anything you should
feel me or give me your perspective which i was more than open but of course with your CLOSED line of communiki we got know why

then you referred to me as a quitter, quitters don't stick around for 10 years
while other members i was friendly with leave and i ask why because they say you're a tyrant and i stayed saying destee must have had her reason
and in your absence i protected your name, I SAID KNOW DESTEE IS NOT
LIKE THAT, and then you commence to give me your *** to kiss last night

that was not right. you have to understand we were SEEING things from our perspective NOT YOURS. we can't see what you see when done know what your true ultimate goal is, so we ask for a meeting to clarify and to ONLY
why i can see that clarification coming to light is by COMMUNICATION
which you did not allow (i was offended not hurt, people told me this would
happend and i said NO NO i love destee. i would die protecting her and you knew in reality you know i would. that's my nature you knew this and for
you to give your *** to kiss was wrong IMO

i respect what you've done HELLO i've been here since afronet
how many members can say that, i know i haven't sent you a ton of money
but i said long time ago i'm not cheap i just ain't got it, i live a life that if a white man live it HE WOULD HAVE KILLED HIMSELF LONG TIME AGO,

and that's what keeps my going the battle, but my battle is not with you
or members of destee.com

i wanted to step aside as a MOD so i can say what i want to say and when i want to say it, that doesn't mean saying to something to stupid, that means
ultimately i have your best interst at heart

say what you may, you can't question my dedication and loyalty and commitment, that doesn't mean i have 57,000 posts to show my commitment
my type of commitment comes when you least expect it

rich knows what he did he blow us off, and he knows i know he knows but it's all good i wasn't mad at that LISTEN, i was insulted by the insult to my
intelligence that is more to me.

you never appreciated my point of view, MY POINT OF VIEW WAS NEVER AN INDICTMENT OF YOU AND RICH Destee, my point of view to get clarification to what i saw. that's all give time i needed help came late or never came at all

and if your communication lines and being swift to reprimand did any to match the speed of which I was booted from chat and how me and watz
were dropped as MODs were would be here at this point

feeling like last night i called the "police" because i was having an issue

and then the cops came and shot me just like you did last night

thank you for all you've done

i've always told you i appreciate you

and that never changes

Where there's smoke...

it's ALWAYS peace and love

again i NEVER wanted to air this in public i'm not that guy but you brought it here. so this is the retardation from severed communication lines especially when my intent to was gain additional understanding from management
and management back into a corner when it was not necessary

like the reasons i stated before this is more then internet for me you
are MORE then internet to me. i've been around you for 10 years
anything you do for 10 years becomes part of your subconscious whether
you like it or not.

example, a friend you've know for more than 10 years you guys fight and never stop talking, that would hurt, you have a hobby you've been doing for 10 years that takes a toll when you have to stop, ssshhh smoking cigarettes for 10 years and stopping would create havoc. i found a woman 10 years on the internet Prompting Blackness and i've stayed ever since. we yearn for the same thing deep down, but you have too much cover.

also shutting me down was a show of disrespect. i will let ANYBODY talk
ANYBODY. if i don't like what you're saying then let's agree to disagree
but to say i can't talk because you feel nobody can tell you to shut up
when that was so far from the case. i wish you had a recording of that meeting to hear yourself. i have a rule if we can't talk let's remove each from to distance or just shoot it out. because i don't live hiding. i WANT people to get their point across. how else would i know if i understand truly what they are saying. I DON'T IF HANG UP ON PEOPLE OVER THE PHONE, that's real sucker **** to me, if somebody is disrespecting over the phone they
either hang up on me or i say i would like to end this conversation because of the fact that i don't hang up people. you on the other how many people do you hang up on? lol just teasin' my bad but you know we can be real
and have a little chuckle of enlightment without it seeming i'm playing here

so by kicking me out of chat showed me you had no intent on resolving
any issues. i just need 60 sec maybe not even that. i'm good at talking under
60 secs prepaid cell phones teach you that. no you had no intent on coming
at us fairly and objectively case and point

sis watz referred you to a thread you started regarding banned words i guess
i don't know the thread myself she said posted it a year ago and all you keep saying A YEAR AGO A YEAR AGO. LISTEN TO ME

you kept saying A YEAR AGO. SIS WATZ POSITION WAS NEVER ONE OF
YOU OR RICH's DELINQUENCY REGARDING THAT THREAD SIS BROUGHT IT UP TO SAY THAT WE'VE ACTUALLY BEEN IN A FOG FOR A YEAR
SO BY ME BRINGING UP THE "**** ME OH ****" BY GS99. SHE SAID YEA
I NEVER GOT AN ANSWER SO I'M STILL IN A FOG

so instead of saying hey i understand you're in a fog so let's resolve this so my MODS are better prepared
no you said **** you because you thought somebody was questioning your commitment
of course watz KNOWS YOU CAN'T REMEMBER EVERY PIECE ESPECIALLY FROM A YEAR ago
she was saying that's she been in a fog since then, but that never got out because you never allowed a platform
your platform was one built to look down at people so you commenced with sarcasm and undermining talking about a 3 or 4 years ago when you KNEW that had no relevance in the discussion

SO SIS WATZ POSITION WAS NEVER ONE OF DELINQUENCY IT WAS LIKE MINE A POSITION OF PLEASE CLARIFY WHY
WOULD WE START A MEETING TO ATTACK YOU GUYS THE WAY YOU ATTACKED US WE'RE HERE BECAUSE YOU CARED FOR YOU GUYS
WE'VE BEEN I APART OF THIS COMMUNITY FOR YEARS AND I CAN SPEAK
FOR SIS WATZ WHEN I SAY WE WORE THIS MOD JOB AS A BADGE OF HONOR
HELPING TO SUPPORT YOU DESTEE

so how do you support us? by saying if you don't want to be here you can go
is that how you talk to your family, and if so if that's how you show "love"
so be it. nobody ever said they wanted to go. i need a timeout because i want to say what i want to say so i didn't want to be bad reflection on the "team" and watz wanted to leave until sunday nite and your comments that i've shown above
because she said why we somewhere was we promote unity and togetherness and management doesn't promote
by giving you sarcasm and talking to you like a kid (that's a paraphrase but i don't think watz would mind)

so how did you support all my work and dedication by kicking me out of chat
and saying i'm not even a part of this team OBVIOUSLY NOT THE way you treated me i guess i wasn't

sis watz didn't want me to go. I DIDN'T want to go, but a thought i timeout
for me would be good and i wanted to leave the door open to return
but that door is closed now.

now back to your YEAR AGO YEAR AGO rant you posed on sunday nite
you kept saying you never felt negative energy like this before

AND YOU KNOW WHO'S NEGATIVE ENERGY THAT WAS YOURS!

AND I WILL SHOW YOU WHY

JUST BEFORE ASKING SIS WATZ TO SPEAK ON THE THREAD THAT YOU POSTED REGARDING BANNED WORDS SHE WAS JUST SAYING YOU NEVER GOT BACK NOT AS A SLIGHT BUT TO SAY WE WERE STILL IN A FOG THAT'S ALL
AND YOU TOOK IT WOW SOME PLACE ELSE

SO JUST BEFORE YOU ASKED WATZ TO SPEAK (I HOPE YOU RECORDED THAT MEETING SO YOU CAN SEE I TELL NO LIE GOD STRIKE ME DEAD NOW!)
YOU SAID YEA WATZ LET'S TALK ABOUT THAT THREAD FROM 3 OR 4 YEARS AGO KNOWING DEEP DOWN IT WAS LAST YEAR NOT 3 OR 4 YEARS AGO
WE WEREN'T MODS THEN, SO WITH YOU BRINGING SARCASM TO THE PICTURE YOU WERE THE ONE BRING THE NEGATIVE ENERGY

how can people asking for understanding get no-understanding for the understanding they were trying to seek

i was not here to sabotage you I KNOW I did a respectful job as MOD
i tried my best to follow the rules
but i have ONE RULE follow my heart where ever that leads
because ultimately i'm trying to do the right thing

I LOVE AND RESPECT YOU FOR 10 YEARS THAT WON'T EVER CHANGE
UNLESS YOU JUST MAKE IT IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO DO THAT
BUT I DIDN'T LOVE AND RESPECT WHAT YOU DID

BY NOT ALLOWING ME TO SPEAK BECAUSE YOU FELT SOMEBODY WAS
TRYING TO STEP OVER BIG BAD DESTEE WAS RIDICULOUS, HOW MANY TIMES HAVE I SAID I LOVE BLACK WOMEN SO I LOVE YOU

I WOULD HAVE NEVER KICKED YOU OUT LIKE THAT

BUT IT SHOWS HOW YOU REALLY GET DOWN

AND THAT'S COOL

LIFE GOES ON

as for the 57,000 post man the only problem we had with him was

he would post this these threads at lighting speed then all of sudden when

i said phone # WOW there was an eerily silence

and if we were cool it wouldn't have been that he could have sent me an email and yo man that's not a good idea

i've spoken on the phone with him before to pay respect to his son
so what was the problem lol i could have given him my #

so again we were not trying to push anyone in a corner
we don't needed clarification

and we're shocked and surprised at the jack move meltdown
that's all