Randee
08-13-2003, 10:11 AM
can't describe how i feel inside
whatever comes out will be a lie
because I simply can't explain
whats going on in my heart, soul and brain
one minute I really think I am okay
the next my life seems in utter disarray
i'm not hiding things from you
I really just don't know what to do
I am not asking for anything
certainly no wedding ring
or you to make up my mind
i am just searching to find
what it is you are ready to give
because this baby will live
and i don't want to tell you
that i don't want to pursue
a relationship but this causes
so many other pauses
in my life and yours
don't want to make you run out the door . . .
then i think, I think real hard
why i am bothering to give you regard
its not like i made this baby on my own
but i know already i will raise him alone
and i guess i am disappointed
but i know my soul will be anointed
i'm trying to keep it real
to explain to you how I feel
don't ask if you wanted a lie
be uncomfortable when I begin to cry
I am being torn inside
trying to take this all in stride
we've been friends for so long
always keeping eachother strong
seemed natural for me to turn to you
when my relationship with him was through
in your arms i found solace
with you peace came any place
as long as I was in your presence
basking in your essence.
and, now i don't even want to dial
your number, tell myself not worthwhile
i want you to call me
i want you to tell me you're coming to see
how i am doing and if there's anything i need
(I told you lately how all i do is feed)
i keep looking out the window
trying to not let you overshadow
the joy I feel about having our baby.
whatever comes out will be a lie
because I simply can't explain
whats going on in my heart, soul and brain
one minute I really think I am okay
the next my life seems in utter disarray
i'm not hiding things from you
I really just don't know what to do
I am not asking for anything
certainly no wedding ring
or you to make up my mind
i am just searching to find
what it is you are ready to give
because this baby will live
and i don't want to tell you
that i don't want to pursue
a relationship but this causes
so many other pauses
in my life and yours
don't want to make you run out the door . . .
then i think, I think real hard
why i am bothering to give you regard
its not like i made this baby on my own
but i know already i will raise him alone
and i guess i am disappointed
but i know my soul will be anointed
i'm trying to keep it real
to explain to you how I feel
don't ask if you wanted a lie
be uncomfortable when I begin to cry
I am being torn inside
trying to take this all in stride
we've been friends for so long
always keeping eachother strong
seemed natural for me to turn to you
when my relationship with him was through
in your arms i found solace
with you peace came any place
as long as I was in your presence
basking in your essence.
and, now i don't even want to dial
your number, tell myself not worthwhile
i want you to call me
i want you to tell me you're coming to see
how i am doing and if there's anything i need
(I told you lately how all i do is feed)
i keep looking out the window
trying to not let you overshadow
the joy I feel about having our baby.